THAT FEELING...

      You know that feeling that you are not really happy with your life? That you think that you are merely existing and not living? That your doubting of whether you really have any purpose in this world? That feeling that you have this big and wonderful dreams however you think that your are not exactly going in  that direction and it seems very far off? That feeling that you are not happy with your job and your guilty because you know that you should be grateful because you have one and you are really not? That feeling that when you choose to resign, you will be in everyone's beck and call again?That feeling that sometimes you just wish to die but then you're afraid cause it might be a painful death? That feeling that you don't really have a clue of what to do with your life? and no matter how much you try, these nagging and awful feelings just keep coming back to hunt you down.
       I don't want to stay like this. I want to be a better person. I want to be the best of what I can be. I want to give my family a comfortable life. I want to try and experience a lot of things. I want to travel around the globe. I want to help others and make a dent into this world. I want to give, give and give. I want to provide houses, jobs and livelihood to other people. I want to make a change but I just don't know how. :(

2015 WILL BE MY GREATEST YEAR EVER! THANK YOU LORD! :)

New Year! New Life!

I'm starting my resolutions again. I can't say that I have stick with it all year round but atleast I have started a little of this and that. I don't want to be hard on myself at this time and I want to congratulate and be happy of my little achievements. So, I'm rewriting my promises for this coming year and I hope that this time, I'll be at the top of my game. I hope to God.

1. Be positive
2. Read good books. Lessen the romance girl!3. Be THANKFUL.
4. EXERCISE more.5. Learn a New Skill or take a course.
6. Save and Invest.7. Lessen Facebook more.
8. Be PRODUCTIVE.
9. Cut the bad foods.
10. Be a blessing and a gift to other people.
11. TRAVEL a lot!
12. Be generous.
13. Be brave and be a risk taker.
14. Win millions.
15. Learn a New Language.
16. Practice Yoga.
17. Be in LOve.

2015! PLEASE BE GOOD TO ME! LORD PLEASE!

DREAM

Dream like you've never dreamed before! Dream like all your dreams will come true. DREAM! DREAM MORE! and DREAM  BEST!

All I want for Xmas

Santa Dearest,
             I know that I haven't been very nice this year and I have been a little bit naughty but I hope that you'll help me with my wish. I hope that I'll be your partner in bringing happiness to those people around me. I do hope I'll be able to give gifts to my family, friends and especially those little adorable kiddos. I don't know if my money is enough to make this happen but I am praying for some miracles. I hope that God will multiply what I have just like what he did to those loaves and fish. Santa, I'm praying and wishing for some supernatural phenomenon and I'll find a pot of gold in our backyard tomorrow morning. Hehehe. But seriously, please help me. PRETTY PLEASE! :)

Israel, here I come!

I declare it! I claim it! I will be joining with Bro. Bro on a holy pilgrimage to Israel this February 10, 2015. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you Lord!

that direction ->

Its definitely time for change. I know I've been speaking about it for a very long time but I guess this time, I need to be true to my word. Honestly, until this time, I haven't have any clue how to change my life. I want to be financially free... I want to be mature...I want to be successful...but it seems that my future is a little bit blurry. However, I think I need to change my inner self. It's time to let go of the remnants of my negativity. I think I'm regressing back to my old self. Frustration and self pity is eating my spirit again.
 Lord, please help me to change my life. I know I haven't been good lately. I have take my worldly and sinful self to take over. Lord, PLEASE HELP ME..PLEASEEE